Whenever I am in the middle of making tough life decisions, it is easy to get bogged down in my own thoughts and have no clear direction on where the Lord wants to take me. I find during these moments that I tend to plead in prayer for anything to soothe that anxious spirit I have. That has been my life this week. And the Lord answered faithfully yesterday. Not with a solution to my problem, but with a soothing of my soul…a break… a rest in Him. And oh how I rested and breathed deep and drank Him in.
It came not in a verse from His word, nor from an encouraging word from friend or article, but merely from a change in weather. Hot and humid is the calling card for weather in August for Nebraska. But yesterday a cold front moved through and, even though I knew it was coming, I was not prepared for the overwhelming wash of refreshment it gave me.
Here I was cooking dinner (a rotisserie chicken) and decided to open the windows as the kids were finally done picking up the basement and wanted to go outside to play as promised. As my house opened up this wave of clean air came rolling through. It is a smell I can’t even begin to describe in words because there are none that would do it justice. But as it rolled through the house mingling with the smell of roasting chicken, my anxiousness dissipated. My heart rejoiced and all I could do was mutter, “Thank you, thank you, thank you…” over and over under my breath as I peeled potatoes.
I could hear the children outside playing with their daddy.
Imaginations churning as nature flourished all around.
I looked around to a picked up house with no dishes in the sink.
With a fresh pile of living books from the library just begging to be poured over.
I smelled dinner being prepared for a table where we could break bread together.
I walked outside to look over the garden (sorely underattended due to the hot weather and I not wanting to partake in it) and found broccoli finally sprouting despite this little moth’s propensity on destroying it.
We found an extra pumpkin hidden among the leaves.
Apples are hanging heavy on the branches beckoning thoughts of apple butter and applesauce to come.
Ivy had discovered the neighbor girl and the first inklings on how to comunicate and make friends.
I felt a kick and looked down to realize that new life is almost here…and that I couldn’t see my feet anymore!
I walked to the house seeing the first real spider web built as an ode to fall coming soon sang out through the sun’s reflection, which also reminded me to feel blessed that we had the money to spray the inside of our house this fall.
And I walked back in the kitchen through a mud-covered patio door knowing the kids would need a quick dunk before dinner and not even minding.
After our delicious meal we were able to walk together to the park and come home to daddy making popcorn balls (oh man, what a treat!) and shakes.
We slept with the windows opened and I fell asleep inspired to wash the sheets the next day.
I awoke to a cool house, littles wanting to snuggle.
We watched the school bus come take the other kids away as we snuggled in P.J.’s, Lily still asleep, me slowly contemplating what to make for breakfast and feeling so blessed to lead the life we do.
We enjoyed hot sweet biscuits with homemade strawberry jam and eggs and leisurely started school at 10 AM with time for a play-outside break for the kids before lunch and a little time to actually write here (precious of late) to spread my joy and enjoy my first cup of coffee for the day.
And enjoyed our first picnic lunch outside in over three months!
And, again, all I could utter was, “thank you, thank you, thank you…” over and over to my Lord and Saviour who knew exactly, to the uttermost detail what the longing of my heart was and, as my loving Father, took care of that need.
So today I urge you all, rest in Him. Let Him find your joy spot. It may not answer a problem you are going through but it will surely bring you peace and a light yoke for the day!
Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.
Matthew 7: 9, 11
Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you…If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!
Matthew 11: 28-30
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.